August 4, 2015

Blaugust Day 4: Dear Esther Broke My Heart (And I Love It Still)

Belghast asks:  
What game that you are not playing, do you still have a deeply nostalgic connection to and why?
This post is about Dear Esther by The Chinese Room, and that it won my heart over as it broke it to smithereens. After nearly ten months, I now have the courage to write about how it did both.

all pictures in this post from the official Dear Esther
site, since I somehow lost every single one of my awesome
screenshots from my playthrough
Oh, Dear Esther. Oh, gosh, Dear Esther. Can the rest of my paragraph be my train of thought of me saying "Dear Esther" multiple times? No?! Fine. Have it your way, Inner Editor. I guess this post is also about not procrastinating.

Dear Esther is an absolute gem. It took me a few years to get Steam and actually buy it for myself, but once I did, I was absolutely pleased throughout the entire experience. Why that is, is easy explainable through trailers and reviews of the game itself. Forsaking those, Dear Esther's chilling story, combined with engaging gameplay and amazing soundtrack, were things that kept me playing throughout my experience, and then left me sobbing at the very end.

Is there ever too much of a sad factor in a good game? Because of Dear Esther, my answer is unfortunately yes. Once the puzzle pieces started to come together about the events and imagery in my head, I stared at my Steam dash in marvel and in shock simultaneously. Had what had happened...really happened in the game? Yes. Yes it had. The explanations of the narrator as I observed the scenery, combined with the scrawlings on the wall, the nuances in the music, and even the reason why I never, ever died began to make so much sense that it tore my heart in two.

And because of that, I wasn't able to go back to the game. Not once after. Now, Dear Esther sits in my Steam inventory after several months, and I still can't look it straight in the title without remembering the tear-jerking story that I would love to revisit. I occasionally get the strength to listen to the soundtrack again, and I love it so, but returning to the story and the truths within the truths are still currently too much.

Would I recommend Dear Esther? Yes. Are you a soft-hearted, story-loving, music-driven person like me? Then buy it on sale. If anything, at the very least watch a playthrough if for any reason at all you can't play, but Dear Esther is such a gem that I think it's a very important milestone for anyone to take, whether they're readers, gamers, movie-lovers, or just plain thinkers and dreamers like me.

If anyone has any questions about Dear Esther, feel free to comment below and I'll share my experiences. Viva Blaugust!

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  1. I still need to finish Dear Esther, it sounds like it'll definitely be worth it! And thanks for keeping things vague. I would have stopped reading if it got spoilery, but I did want to finish reading why the game is so important to you. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on it!

    1. I looked up spoilers after I finished in order to really understand the game. Everything's got a double meaning, so watch out for things. ;) Let me know how you like it.


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